Invisible

Picture me gasping as I drag myself away from the word processor on my mop water soaked knees. "Must... clean.... house..."

Needless to say my WIP is going slower than I would like, and I'm having withdrawals.

I've been away from my computer a lot lately due to company and other of life's interruptions. So not only haven't I written, I haven't been keeping up on my online presence. Not that anyone would notice, as I'm not much of a presence anyway...

I've noticed that I am invisible in cyberspace. Other people carry on friendships and conversations merrily, but when I happen to have a comment and post it, nine times out of ten there's no response. Now, I know that I'm odd and maybe what I say doesn't make any sense, but you'd think someone would at least pipe up and say "Huh?"
The silence is giving me a complex. #doIhaveBO?

Spring Cleaning

I've finally been blessed with one of those rare days when there are no scheduled outside events. Oh joyous opportunity! I can now catch up on all the stuff I should have been doing while I was running around crazy.

I used to find these sort of days as an opportunity to do something fun and adventurous. Now, I'm just excited to get the wash folded and the ironing finished. What have I become? Is my life really so mundane that laundry is the pinnacle of self fulfillment?
Have I become so immersed in my family and other peoples' lives that I have lost my own?

I honestly can't think of anything I'd rather do than get my housework caught up today. But... that's not such a bad thing really. Yesterday I got my garden mostly planted at last, and even though it is a late spring, it's still spring, and it's done, and I feel good. I know I'll feel good when the house is cleaned up too. No adventure could make me feel any better than that... So spring cleaning, here I come.

Feeling guilty, not groovy.

I am a quiet person. I make no excuses for that, but after reading some posts this morning from my friends blogs, I think maybe I should post a little more regularly. At the rate I've been going, Blogger is going to drop me as an inactive account.

I haven't been much more diligent on my WIP either. I hadn't written anything for several weeks, until yesterday. I have been going through a sort of subtle depression I think. I read too much, watched too many movies, and generally did anything to avoid my life, including my writing.

I made myself write yesterday and felt so good after, that I cant figure out why I was putting it off. It seems I always put off the things that are best for me, like eating healthy, exercise, personal time and writing. It's crazy, it's got to stop.

So I'm turning over a new leaf. I'm going to make myself write every day for at least an hour, five to six days a week. I'm going to write first thing in the morning, while the girls sleep in and Jeff has already left for work.

I'm also going to post on this blog at least once or twice a week. Hopefully that will help to keep me thinking like a professional writer. It will force me to organize my thoughts and think about my life and how it's going. Who knows, maybe it will become a daily thing and I'll actually have something to say for a change... or not.